30 Days Challenge; DAY 1!

I'm taking this challenge just for the fun of it. And I got this from my dear Raerae. You know who you are babe. (p/s - I'm addicted to the song at your blog.)

DAY 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Well, as all of you know, I am very much single.


I've been single for a very long time and I don't feel the need to change my status anytime soon. Or perhaps that is because I have grown comfortable and accustomed of being by myself, not having to report to someone of my wellbeing, my whereabout and my doings. 


I have been in a relationship twice during my high school though truthfully, I won't really call it a relationship. They lasted for less than a month; around two weeks I believe and it was most probably because I never really like my boyfriend at that time. Don't get me wrong, I like them but I didn't like them, get it?  The stories behind my relationships were quite complicated so let us leave it at that.

Well, for me, I am very much enjoying single life though I am not going to deny that I feel lonely at times and want nothing more to have someone to talk to, someone to share jokes with and someone to lean on when I need a pillar of support. But then, I realised that I already have someone for all of that and this someone have always been there for me. He never leaves me, always by my side and He knows best what's going through my head and what's hidden in my heart. He's the only support I will ever needed and only He will be with me and help me through my hardest and joyous part of my life. He is here, has been and will always be. There's no question about it.

So I thought to myself, I don't need a boyfriend. I have Allah.

What I really need is a husband. *winks*






because I miss them...so damn much.

Looks can be pretty deceiving...

It's almost 12 pm and I've been to McDonald for the second time now and let me tell you, I'm not that big of a fan of McD.

I was awoken this morning quite early by my beloved mother for the sole reason of buying chicken porridge for my dear sick father and at that time, I was kinda groggy. I don't like people disturbing my sleep so I was like, "wha? dun wan...let me shleep..." buried self deeper into the heavenly comfort of fluffy pillows.

But of course, mother being mother, has a strong leash on her daughter so with a rather heavy heart (and eyelids), I got out of my sleeping nest and made myself decent enough for the outside world. Long story short, I arrived at McD, took the drive-thru and ordered a bowl of chicken porridge and an apple pie for my own self. So you see, the cashier at that time was really cute and he was really friendly (as in, he greets with a smile and asks you warmly what you want to order and says 'thank you, please come again' with such pleasantry and I'm sounding like a smitten teenage girl. -.-) so I kinda...erm...check him out a little. >.<

He wasn't handsome, he was just...cute. Kinda boyish looking. Definitely not tall, probably shorter than me and his built is that of a teenage boy. Even so there's a sense of maturity about him so you won't mistaken him as a high school boy. I predict he's around my age or a bit older.

Anyway, I was just checking him out so that was all that happened and I was very much content with it. Even then, I kind of had my suspicions about him but I just let it be because it's not like I'm going to meet him again or be friends with him or anything. And so the suspicions were being left as just suspicions.

Around 11am, my dad wanted another bowl of chicken porridge and me, being an obedient daughter that I am, went out to buy it, again. On the way, I thought to myself, wouldn't it be funny if it's the same cashier again... and whaddaya know, it WAS the same cashier again.

At that time I was a bit embarrassed and I know for sure that he remembered me because he wore that knowing smile of 'hey, it's you again! ordering the same thing!' and I could see a taint of mirth in his eyes and no people, I am not imagining things. As he went to get my order, I checked him out again because I just felt like I was missing something here and sure enough, as I got my receipt, my suspicions earlier on were answered.

It's a she. The cashier is a girl.

Talk about being androgynous.

A Life.

I was reading this one fic and it was short and brief yet after finished reading it, I felt...melancholy. Then I came across her blog and there was this one post in which she talked about the dilemma she's having in between following her dream or just play it safe and a thought came through my mind.

'What am I doing?'

I've been rather...aimless these past two months and I realised that I've lost the motivation to actually LIVE OUT my life as I've plan it out to be once upon a time. I just stayed at home, doing nothing but meaningless things such as surfing the net for things of no importance or watching some stupid dramas that bring nothing but, well...nothing or perchance just laying around daydreaming of the impossible.

I need my priorities back.

I need my motivation back.

And most important of all, I need a life.

And I need it now.

Guess it's time to change.





I heart them. Fullstop.

(-fangirling mode- jdh65&^!@$543jdf I WANT THIS SONG SO FREAKING BAAAADDD! Jae-sama~)